August 25, 2010

Pray

Posted in Uncategorized at 11:21 am by kindoflove

Well. After a long night of restless sleep..

I’m alive today.

I got in meaningful talk with a good friend last night. All this with my mom is stirring up old emotions that I never dealt with with my dad. I don’t like these emotions. I don’t want to deal with these emotions.

I shouldn’t be mad at God. I never should have been mad at God. I learned this last night after talking deeply with Courtney and Jenn. God loves me and hes not out to hurt me.  Courtney made me watch this video last night. It really changed how I felt.

I don’t know how to trust God fully yet. I don’t know how to be intimate with God.  Not that I don’t want that because I do.  I’m scared, like I said last night. I should pray about it, I am praying about it.

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