August 24, 2010
I won’t sleep tonight.
Today was too much like the day my dad died. And I swear, if I get a phone call from the hospital at 4am, I will no longer be living by tomorrow. That’s a promise.
My day went as follows:
- Went with my mother for her EKG
- Mother sent to the ER because she had too many changes in her EKG
- Mother see’s a doctor about what’s going on
- Mother learns she has heart problems
- Several more tests
- Moved to critical care
- Several more tests
- Holly has to take a break because she’s been stressing all day, somebody finally rescued her.
- Holly spent several hours away during the blood transfusion
- Holly heads back for visiting hours
- Holly learns more bad news
- Holly leaves trying to hold it together
- Holly comes home and bursts into tears.
My life is falling apart.
I’m so worried. I’m worried about my mom, I’m worried about moving, I’m worried about where I’m going to live, I’m worried about whats going to happen next, I’m so worried.
Things just keep going wrong. I don’t understand. Do I deserve this?
kindoflove
